Sat Ooops should be Sun ...nop.. mon already cos it's 12:02 am.

A week to go before the school starts again...  new school...new students...new colleagues... new duties.... lots of duties......... really scared that i could not manage them (work and study in the meantime plus many other things....

3 years of teaching. Is that expereinced to be called? But the school thinks I am and so there are lots of things to do.... maybe it's their excuse to give more jobs to do....nono... be positive......

 "SAY NO when you can't manage so many things at the same time"... that's the Father told us in the New teachers induction workshop....

God will know that and take care of me....

but I'd better say less and keep working in the new environment.. bear in mind... before i know the dynamics and relationship there... (i gotta write it down so that i can remember it.)

Tue Panel meeting.... really have to bear in mind and listen.........

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There's been mixed feeling stirring me these days... I know why...

Sometimes it's really hard to manage such intense and overflowing feeling inside.. when you can't really do anything, say anything or write anything.......when you're missing a person/a thing so much. (Oh! I did write, but unsent, untext, un..., un...)

That's not pleasant at all... Gotta get rid of it.......but can't..

The next time this bomb  explode... will be the peace comes... along with destruction...

really fed up with this kind of playing.... hide and seek, guess and hope....and waiting...do you know i'm waiting?Better just tell me not to wait or simply reject me... just make it neat and tidy/ clean and clear!

would like to have a vacumn clearner to clear all those feelings and memories in my mind......